Freaking Out – Nine Days Out From Spartan Ultra Beast 2012

So we are 9 days events from my biggest race of the year.

The Spartan Ultra Beast is a full marathon distance obstacle course. We are doing two laps of the half-marathon distance course. There is one water station half way through the loop, and we are allowed to access a drop bag between loops.

And to be honest, I’m starting to freak out. I don’t know what it is that I am worried about… Most of the pressure and expectations are very much self-generated.

I’m worried I won’t finish. I’m worried I won’t finish well.

Reading the elaborate Facebook posts and blog posts from the fellow Ultra Beasters, most of whom seem to be already packed (!), only adds to the anxiety. I do not even know where I’m sleeping the night before yet!

Physically, I am ready. I am strong. I have been training. I can do this. Now I just need to get my head into the same ready space.

My plan for the next few days is to start packing my drop bag. The most immediate shopping list:
– 20 gallon plastic bin with a lid
– 2 head lamps (and batteries)
– 2 glowsticks
– face paint

And… breathe.


posted: September 13, 2012